Very difficult decision to make for my 17 year old.
Milly, my best friend for the past 17 years is struggling. She had Mast Cell cancer 4 years ago and it attacked her digestive track so I home cook a bland diet for her. She gets an occasional bout of colitis and it can be pretty bad sometimes. I use flagyl, pepcid and time to get her feeling better. The big issue is quality of life. She is almost totally blind and deaf. she has had cataracks for years and recently had an eye ulcer and almost lost her eye. She was in a lot of pain and cannot do many of the things she did before. Her vision in that eye is most likely gone, but then she almost lost it so I guess this is a blessing. I carry her upstairs at night to go to bed and down in the morning. I carry her outside, 2 steps to get off the porch and she can't go down, but sometimes she can go up just the two steps. I have to be on constant vigil when we are outside because of sticks or bushes that could damage her eyes so she is never off leash and her longest walk is 2 blocks.
Just after the eye ulcer I called the vet because I wanted to talk about end of life, Milly will sit and stare? Not sure what she is doing at strange places, kitchen cabinets, the wall. I am not sure she knows where she is all the time. She never wags her tail anymore and I know that last week she told me she was miserable. She sleeps 23hours a day and I feel like she is in the nursing home stage of life.
If I would have any idea that the small recovery from the eye ulcer would take a month and many long drives to the eye specialist I am not sure I would have tried to save her this time. I am at a loss, what do you think?